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[chris_w_pine]

Zach described my eyes in the most beautiful way and it left me speechless.

"Your eyes...have always shown me the real you..." I whisper.

"What? I don't get pools of melted chocolate?" He teases, caressing my jaw. "You can see right inside me. You always have."

"Because it's all right there in your eyes...: I say softly. "You've never been able to hide it...not from me. Maybe from others you can but all I need to know...I can see clearly in your eyes..."

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[ersatzach]

I kiss him softly. "What are my eyes telling you now?"

[chris_w_pine]

"That you want me..." I breathe.

[ersatzach]

"So very badly," I confess. "But-- you must be very sore.... I don't want to add to it..." I rasp. He's going to have to... nudge me into it.

[chris_w_pine]

"Z..." I whisper and take his face into my hands...kiss him...nibble on his lower lip. "I need you..." I murmur. "I'm a little sore..." I am...we were so rough this afternoon...but I am no more sore than any other time. "But I need you..."

[ersatzach]

"I need you..." I echo. I kiss him again, reach for the lube. "If you need me to slow down... to stop... you tell me."

[chris_w_pine]

"I will..." But I know that I won't...I need him so badly...

[ersatzach]

I kiss him again. "SLow... yes?" I say, slicking my fingers, pressing one against him.

[chris_w_pine]

"Slow..." I gasp as he pushes his finger into my body. "Zach..."

[ersatzach]

"Baby..." I murmur. That sounded like pain. "Chris... talk to me..."

[chris_w_pine]

It stings...but I couldn't bear it if he stopped now. "Dontstoppleasedontstop..."

[ersatzach]

I kiss his furrowed brow. I am as gentle as I can be, as slow as I can be. "Easy, baby... relax for me..."

[chris_w_pine]

As his finger moves inside of me...carefully...slowly...I do begin to relax. "Kiss me, please..."

[ersatzach]

"Of course, my darling... my love..." I rasp and I do kiss him and tehen I add another finger, easing him open until he seems ready. "Do you want me, baby?"

[chris_w_pine]

"Yes..." I say and look up at his face...into his eyes, "I want you so badly..."

[ersatzach]

I kiss him again and withdraw my fingers. I wrap his legs around me and press against him. "I love you." I say and slide slowly into him.

[chris_w_pine]

"Oh, Z..." I press my face against his neck and hold on to him tightly as he comes to rest, fully seated inside of me. He hesitates...and I feel his arms tremble form the effort it takes to hold still. "Please..."

[ersatzach]

I start to slowly move. The pace is careful. I kiss his neck, whisper softly to him. "You feel amazing..."

[chris_w_pine]

"So do you..." I whisper. "God, so do you...." I lift my hips...move with him...

[ersatzach]

I moan, grip his hips and push a little deeper. I reach between his legs, stroke his cock. "Come for me..."

[chris_w_pine]

his hands feel so strong...he pulls and tugs my flesh. "Zach..." I cry out as I come...

[ersatzach]

I moan his name and my hips buck as I come. I sink down against him. "Are you okay?"

[chris_w_pine]

I heard his voice...but it sounds so far away. He says my name...repeats himself...and this time is voice is clear in my ears. I nod...

[ersatzach]

He's so quiet... and then he nods but doesn't speak. I hold him carefully. "I have you... if you can't talk just yet... it's ok... just... I just want to know I didn't-- do any damage..." I rasp.

[chris_w_pine]

I shake my head and hear Zach say my name...hear the panicked question in his voice. "No damage..." I assure him. "I'm okay..."

[ersatzach]

His voice is so soft. "You're sure? If you're not...please tell me."

[chris_w_pine]

"Shhhh..." I murmur in his ear. "I could never lie to you..."

[ersatzach]

I exhale. "I know..." I rasp. "You got so quiet though... it scared me."

[chris_w_pine]

He pulls back and looks down at my face. "Don't be scared..." I reach up and touch his cheek. "You were so gentle..."

[ersatzach]

"I treid to be..." I rasp. "I trust you if you say you're okay. You still seem sort of far away."

[chris_w_pine]

"A little..." I admit with a soft smile. "But things are coming back into focus..." I cress his jaw. "Give me a coupla minutes to...regroup..."

[ersatzach]

"Okay, baby." I say and rest my head on his chest, listen to his strong, steady heartbeat and hold him.

[chris_w_pine]

I thread my fingers through his hair, massage his scalp. "How are you, sweetheart? Are you okay?" I ask softly.

[ersatzach]

"Yeah," I say. "You felt so good... and I need you. I need you so much. I needed that."

[chris_w_pine]

"Did you...?" I ask softly...a small smile curling my lips. "I like to hear you say that...that you need me..."

[ersatzach]

"Of course I need you. You're-- a crucial part of me. You're as necessary as air or water... I can't... I can't live without you. Exist maybe. But not live."

[chris_w_pine]

"No...there is no life without you..." I whisper. "Just like...I had only existed before you...and I came alive the moment I met you..."

[ersatzach]

I kiss him softly. "How are you feeling? Truth."

[chris_w_pine]

"Sore...raw..." I say truthfully. "Much more focused...happy..." I smile. He laughs softly and brushes some hair off my forehead. "We're making love all night, remember..."

[ersatzach]

"How could I forget," I say. "You can... take the lead this next go..." I raise an eyebrow.

[chris_w_pine]

"This next go?" I laugh and he tickles my side. "Yeah...I think that's a good idea. Give me a chance to...recover..."

[ersatzach]

"We might have to get creative because-- I dont think you can... I don't want you to be hurting for days."

[chris_w_pine]

I nod. "It might take a few days...before I can bottom..." I say softly. "Is that okay...?"

[ersatzach]

"Do you-- do you really need to ask me that? Yes its ok. Anything that keeps you safe and healthy is okay. I want you to be totally honest with me. I can wait. We can do other things or just cuddle or whatever..."

[chris_w_pine]

"Or I can make love to you..."

[ersatzach]

"You can most certainly do that," I say. "I would love to... be made love to again... and again..."

[chris_w_pine]

"And again..." I waggle my eyebrows and he laughs. "I should probably take some Advil, though...and we should both get some water...stay hydrated..."

[ersatzach]

"When you're ready... I'll go get you what you need. Get us water..."

[chris_w_pine]

I start to say that I'm ready but then I hesitate for a moment. "I'm ready..." I do say "but come back quickly..."

[ersatzach]

Even though he says he's ready I wait a few more beats and then nod. "I'll be as fast as I can." I kiss him softly and withdraw from his body. He lets out a curse and trembles a little. "Fuck-- I'm sorry, baby..." I hold hm tightly. "I have you... I'm sorry..."